"As he passed by, he saw a man blind from birth. And his disciples asked him, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?” Jesus answered, “It was not that this man sinned, or his parents, but that the works of God might be displayed in him. " John 9:1-2

Thursday, March 6, 2014

Survival Mode Again...

Hello all,

Please pardon my absence....recently I had to go back into survival mode. This time, though, it had nothing to do with my daughter or her needs.

My husband was diagnosed with Burkitt's  Non-Hodgin's  Lymphoma. It is a rare, fast growing form of cancer, and the closest hospital that treats it is the Cleveland Clinic. He underwent aggressive, in-patient chemotherapy. We are so very grateful the Clinic is very close to where we live, and even though it is rare, they treat it often.

During the past 4 months I learned alot about who I am and the strength I have gained because of the all-to-familiar state of survival mode. I was surprisingly able to pick up on all the medical terminology, medications, side effects and how to recognize them when they came. I was able to just read my husband's face and know what he needed.

 I attribute this to the past eleven years of having to do whatever my daughter needed, whenever a crisis occurred with her. I became good at it, because of survival mode. I am grateful for the opportunity I have had thus far being a special mom , and truly discovering who I was meant to be.

God chose me to be a caretaker. To my entire family. I consider it a privilege to care for them and have the strength to endure this season of my life.

If  you are in the midst of survival mode right now...even though you may not feel it or see it, God is preparing you for the future and He will hold you up and teach you so many things along the way.

Trust Him.
His molding you into the person you were meant to be.

~Maria